If you look back on my first post it would reflect the vagueness,the confusion I felt back then,the lack of clarity and absolute uncertainty I predicted for myself for a few years.
All through the darkness though you will always find yourself crawl towards the light.Often it seems as though you may never find happiness but we all possess in us a will and determination.We continue to strive to survive no matter what.Even if we don’t see it within us it finds you and gently pushes you onwards.
In my teaching career I have had so many ups and downs in these last few years that imagined there would be a day I’d have to stop pursuing it altogether.Even then to stay connected with something I love to do I started a small Elocution,Speech and Drama class.I ran it from home and had just a handful of children coming to me.I frankly didn’t think I’d be able to earn a living from it but it let me teach which is what I wanted.
Today I’m back teaching Speech and Drama in a school.I haven’t felt such happiness in a long time.Happiness to be in a classroom full of children.Happiness in learning creative ways to approach different lessons and classes.Happiness in interacting with students when putting up short skits for school programmes.Happiness from just stepping out of the house each morning and have somewhere to go where I know and can hope to learn,grow and love what I do more than ever before.All that I’ve missed for so long.
The point really is that we make mistakes,we fall,we plunge into darkness but we have to find a way to continue to love,to hope, to let go and stay happy.You don’t need to find it either it’s inside you slowly lighting up the way till you feel a little alive,till you can find the strength to push away the negativity and pull towards you all that’s buried deep in your heart and let you breathe again.
So this year find your happy day,have a little moon dance and don’t let anything ever kill that vibe!